My life in a nutshell.

Most people are busy in their lives, but some probably think about my story a little bit, someone must have read something by now?

I was born a regular kid, and my spirit was the same and my soul the same as any other baby. But as soon as I was born, someone cut my penis little bit, so I died. But because I was too young, I didn't know. So my ego died with the cut penis or glans penis, but I got reborn straight away as guess who?

God Venus. A demi-God. Or the potential of God Venus.

So as I got older I changed into Perseus as I lost my fear of the ocean. It took a long time before I could swim out into the ocean I was never really meant to swim in. I am a river person. Evan I mean.

So I was changed from Evan, straight away and to God Venus, before that I was flesh and blood and just my human spirit and soul.

So as I became a God, or Perseus a Demi-God, my story changed.

And I became a soldier of peace. So I had to go about my life single and just fight for peace of the whole world to stop the process of cutting my penis.

And anyway I gradually grew inside, and I realised I had been the souls of 300 men and the body of Christ. So when I realised this I released them, and they flew away to heaven and I went too, and I became a Superman, or the spirit of one. And my soul grew into a Superman. The rest of me and my other beings flew up to heaven angels. I resurrected my dead brother Isaiah and he went to heaven too.

And I sent a lot of people, good people wandering aimlessly and the whole animal kingdom, who had had enough of the torture, to heaven too.

The ones left behind had too much evil or too good of a life to want heaven. They had mammon on Earth, money and wealth. And we all need that, but that's all their heart had, everything for money, not love.

So I began building my Kingdom in space.. as a Superman without really realising it. I wasn't awake.

And I re-birthed Evan, my own self who never got to live, in heaven too to be with my brother Isaiah for Evan was Jehovah. So we are together again in heaven.

And it's up to me now to restore Earth and stop any torture or mutilation of children or anything else.

Which I have done already.. so yeah I've finished my Kingdom, which will arrive once the old one is gone.. whenever that is. I don't know.. might be a thousand years away. But I have to wait for the old Kingdom to end.

So then we can enjoy Heaven on Earth, which is the process of restoring Earth and our cosmos back to normal.

One day I might return to Earth, with just the sky above as Evan. And live the life I missed.

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Evan would have liked to have met his girl in class and sat together.

Attended these sort of dances...

Lived a gala lifestyle.

I wouldn't have known pain, or death, or sorrow, or crime, or anything pornographic...

Heaven would have showered down like the stars falling around me and my true love.

Where are we but true regret,

Tombs of our own making,

Lives soaked in our own self,

Death but a step away,

But life forgotten to the leaves dry on the ground around us,

Melting snow,

Running water,

Sun that scorches our skin,

Animals scared to speak,

People busy to get home,

And home a digital pleasure palace we don't want or enjoy,

To suck every essence from our souls,

To feed the hungry vultures fat and ugly from greed.

I only knew death at age 12,

When my love had been stripped from my thoughts and killed,

She would have lifted me from deaths grip,

And we would have been but unicorns absent from the knowledge of the apple of the tree,

Of the garden of good and evil,

But the snake said..

"Sit a while and think with me, and see...

You are alone..."

And I believed him.

But I didn't love that lie..

And saved myself.

What was Evan,

Who would he have been?

A best friend,

Not someone you pulled away from,

But someone you longed to be with every day,

A hero to all,

In the tales he told,

Not the sadness he lived,

A chef, an inventor and a poet,

But what am I now,

I'm all these things,

Super-powered...

But I don't know it.

So I sit and stare at the life I would have had,

Glowing film reel.. in front of me,

But I can replay it again and again,

But not one song is familiar to me, in my heart...

It's the same thing again and again,

Sampled and stored in digits,

Of off and on,

Not told in ribbons of song...

A lament of a robot, I don't care for,

Buzzing his story at me he never lived,

Asking me to cry at his design,

For he didn't want to meet me this way either.

So what of this world we are in now?

It is ok, we are alive,

Finding things we didn't know before,

Isn't a bad thing,

Our expectations of life rarely do they match life experience,

But as a child I only learned my expectations,

Later in life,

From hiking the gorges,

To driving for ages,

From state to state,

Finding my boundaries,

And my strengths,

And my place,

Void of love,

But given my all for my life,

To become what I want,

And find the people I love,

And the work I want,

It will come, it will come,

In time when it's right,

We are marooned on an island and floating slowly back home,

Building our boat as we go,

From debris from the tornado,

That ruined our lives and wrecked our good ship,

But when we get home we can say,

I'll never have to do that again.