Anyway, whatever have a good day... my broken vertebrae.

Oh wow, I been down in the dumps since seeing that Youtube video disregarding our environment concerns and it just got me really upset focussing on negatives again which is unlike me, usually I am upbeat and happy and doing the do.

So I will just try not to get into those discussions with myself on here..

And just focus on good stuff good times.. its not easy when you got no money you are a target.. so I just got to dodge and weave dodge and weave...

I really have to try and find a way to get some income.. I'm not sure how.. I really am not very experienced for a 47 year old man. But I am energetic and well educated enough to do any job, its just finding one.. but my back has been really good the last few days, my broken vertebrae I sustained in childhood I realised was the cause of my pain, not mental health.. well it needs proper mending.. I can transform ok to Superman and it just tucks inside doesn't hurt, but as a human it is uncomfortable.

That vertebrae I even thought driving back home to Grandmas on the north NSW coast, we thought it was sciatica and it wasn't I had a ruptured vertebrae at the base of my spine.. exactly where the pain was.

How can a doctor miss that!!!!! 40 years wasted I could be married have my family.. be doing all this space stuff for real and Superman probably awake!!!

The pain has shut down my mind so I just am asleep all the time.

Not sure if I need a doctor advice or just wait a bit longer now I know it feels it is finally mending.. but I'm not sure.

I even had an osteopath go over my back pain and didn't mention to get scans for it or anything, I really think if you have pain they should make checks for bone injuries.

Like I had the spiritual enlightenment, and it was frightening.. but that went away in a few weeks after.. but associating it with the pain as well and then being put on medications for schizophrenia???, I had no idea what was going on, I thought my whole spirit was like black hell.

I never was mentally ill, or schizophrenic, I was just busy examining myself for answers how heal up the problem.

No one ever helped me with that, not doctors or anyone, it was my own efforts all the time.

My friends all left me because they thought I was piss weak not being able to handle a bad trip!!

I should be recognised as Prince of Australia by now!!

I have to keep going out incognito doing my space work and building. Without really knowing it. Your life doesn't stop you keep achieving one way or another your goals. But what a horrible way to do it.