Before the rave… before the end.

I was at Melbourne university in parkville studying something just trying enjoy arts and wanting something I didn’t know what really I was finding out I wasn’t as good as I may have thought at high school even though I didn’t think much of myself there either.

but life confused me but I enjoyed the day and worked and went home but I liked music but it was all becoming lights and electronics and I didn’t like drugs..

I had equipment but not much desire to perform more just be at home experimenting romancing my heart and mind… over words and sounds and pictures maybe I was important.

and one day I read the bible cover to cover always sexually aroused by it..

and I thought after I finished reading it I would transform into something new…

and it didn’t happen but soon after I had the ego death at the rave..

it was a few weeks after giving up on seeking my true love.

i live by the ocean…