How do computers influence our life negatively and depression.

The programming we get from computers wasn't around in the 1800's and life was quite good, no one committed suicide. people died with honour in bed with loved ones.. computer processing did bring control over our minds of our bones, and bones desire sleep and rest, and because of that we resent our life and our body and want our bones to rest... when you reach the bottom and you aren't dead and your bones won't hold you up, you slip into psychosis where you begin to think through your bones into your soul, and it is there you make a decision, do I want to try and become well and lift up, or slip into hell and kill myself to release this body. I crawled to the toilet one night in agonising pain and I couldn't feel my body I was carrying myself with my own soul and I fell off the back of myself and held myself by the bathroom sink and in that moment I made a decision to hold on because my heart led me.. I loved life too much and myself, and I pulled myself back into my body and walked back to bed and began a recovery back to life.. because to release would have been too painful.. it was around the time I was thinking there was no option than to end it, and I had no other way back.. just a rope, but I thought what if I hang myself and after wake up and no one can find me but I am stuck on a rope.. and I grow into a man on a rope in nature and stay there forever??? And that thought was a delusion maybe??? but it saved my life.