My little friend.. fly.

https://youtu.be/Izy1TgMe-tI?si=qvJxAM5Gl_D2cEcE

Clinical depression is when you are unavailable to yourself but have no-one to help you. So you fall into hell to find help.. so don't feel too bad about it, its normal means your network has broken somewhat and when you need help that person isn't there.. and you can't do anything either.. it may not be trauma you might be normal, or unaffected by trauma I mean, but you are depressed into hell because you are failing at life and falling and no one will come.. but wait.. someone will.

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I was in hospital and felt no-one was there for me.. and I noticed a fly walking by on the sofa.. and it cared for me and I learned nature cared and it was enough in that moment to carry on.. thank you little fly.

If you don't like hearing the answers on the internet but more in person... and you feel upset and disappointed.. consider you are alive once.. and this might be your only chance to grow to understand why you feel this way, so use that opportunity for growth and you will become available to yourself again and not rely on others so much. Good luck all the best.