What the heck is a mental illness?

We usually growing up through childhood, live a normal life, or so we think. What is normal anyway? Maybe we are a pretty girl, sedated and raped by her Father all her childhood into adulthood and she thinks that's normal?

Maybe we are bullied all our child hood and we don't know any different because we have grown up believing it is what life is about?

Maybe we think cheese making is who we are, but long really to be a ballet star!! But we are told they are faggots and you are gay and hated at for saying so.. like Billy Elliot was... who became seriously mentally ill in his old age over it all.

So you see, the expectations of a happy life we are told is normal and real and what it is all about, may not be the reality we face day to day.

So when we realise this, it can be quite shocking!! And often if we don't realise it we are seriously in danger of death, because the alert isn't there of bad health..

People might say to us "Wake up to yourself!!!" and we laugh.. because we think they are being funny or just like giving us the tough love we have grown accustomed to.

So when we do realise, or are told, or find out the effect on our body that our whole life has been a lie... can be so bad we can become paralysed with fear and neurosis, even psychosis if we lose touch with reality long enough. And our ego, the constructed universe or life we know falls away, can even take our bodies with it and leave us a spiritual entity floundering around for answers.

So even just coming to terms with the fact we might be spiritual when we have received no love all our life or spirituality in teaching us about our design or nature, can lead us to an ego death or psychosis too where we lose our concept of reality.

This can happen in many ways, often a common way is through the use of drugs which alter the acid behaviours of our brain chemistry. But there can be other factors, abuse, accidents, injuries, anything really traumatic.

So you see a mental illness is where it is seen that this trauma of the brain or nervous system might be a prolonged problem inhibiting normal behaviour and lifestyle, not likely to result in full recovery and need ongoing treatment till you basically die.

But you can make a decision here. Do I believe these people about myself or do I want to take control and change my destiny and become a student and learn about myself. Become my own teacher. Reflect others in my face and find answers in me? Some call it the passing of knowledge from a guru to guru. No master, or teacher or student is greater than any other, we are all just the same on different paths, maybe at different times in our histories but we are learning from each other about ourself. No one can know it all at birth a baby!

And if you do make this choice to seek help from a guru, or find it within yourself, then you have started a journey which could result in finding heaven or at least enlightenment. You don't find it from the trauma it is the awakening to truth about yourself and the end result of the process of healing which brings about the knowledge of enlightenment. Some might say oh I took LSD and I am a guru.. not so, you are probably delusional, but hey its your journey it might be you lost it and found it straight away!!

LSD is probably the worst way to find enlightenment, the best way possibly just through love making or talking to people you meet.

And it can happen like myself, by accident. I didn't consciously take LSD and think oh I want to seek enlightenment this way.. it was part of my problem of living a lie and having to wake up!!

I actually when I think about my circumstances without hindsight could not have avoided my fate. I was kind of set up or conned to take the drug. I took no money purposefully to not take any drugs, but we scrounged around everyone who went, for money, and I got it - it was going to happen.. if not someone might have just given me a trip, or I might have sat down and someone slipped something into my drink... it is a demonic fate.. demons deal this out, you can't really be vigilant enough to avoid it without like I say prior knowledge of the future outcomes.

So mental illness is the result of your traumatic experience in finding out about yourself, and then if you are brave enough and loved and find the right people you can recover fully, but remember you won't go back to that same moment before it happened the same. You will have grown in years and experience and developed new beliefs. So stick to them, trust your mind and your heart and yourself... if no-one believes you, then you believe in you!!!

Doctors will tell you, you are sick and need medicine.

Decide, what do I want out of this? And take small steps toward it.

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I apologise, I forgot to mention psychopaths.. who hack people.. they can't be helped they are doomed.

And of course there are some who play games pretending to be sick and try and like have fun with the system.. yeah avoid those people they are psychopaths too.

A psychopathic person, is someone who has learned not to heal but to live a life being psychotic and not finding a way back to every day life with everyone else, they are usually by themselves and secretly plan revenges and to hurt people who have hurt them.

Myself, I became a creative God and set out to find a way to help the earth recover back to a great natural sanctuary. Why haven't I sought to make millions of dollars from my ideas and writing and story? My riches are so abundant in heaven I can't possibly find the will to worry about a few dollars. You can't compare the power and glory of heaven to money.. Glory is the greatest wealth you can have.

If I was offered money for my story or a good job, of course I would accept though. I am not crazy!!! Geez I love Tim Tams like anyone else!!! They are expensive!!

And Bill Gates and Microsoft you should be so ashamed that you allow a psychopath to run the world with my invention to destroy humanity.. shame on you and for hacking me its founder.. you are creeps. I never did it for fame or money its why I worked so hard on it until my death and never saw it working. I just loved invention and making really nice stuff and you ruined it all for me.

Poor little skinny nerds.. oh poor me.. the bad men will hurt us and punch us and hit us into the lockers... well you know what I was one too and I had a good heart and a good sense of humour so blame your sick selves.. you do it to yourself being sick minded psychos.

You just like shit smearing my writing with your poopy influence hacking me don't you, you love the attention mummy and daddy never gave you struggling to swim at school at pool time.

I loved swimming it was just freezing cold at 9am in the morning in autumn... thanks...

I WOULD NEVER USE MY INVENTION TO ATTACK MY CUSTOMERS!!! EVER!!!