Why did I do it, say I'm Superman? Or God?

I had an enlightenment experience, it was hard it was born out of fear. I had to try and understand it myself whilst being misdiagnosed as Schizophrenic or Schizo-effective when really my mind was untouched, it was my chakra in my stomach had reversed into a black hole of despair.. and awoken me through fear and hunger to find answers.

So I turned to religion at times, and studying other theologians and enlightened masters such as Buddha, and Jesus, and more recent ones like Andrew Cohen and the Krishna faith I knew about I leaned on them for help.

But after a while I had to just face up to real life and get on with it. I had met my soulmate (I believe she is) and well missed my marriage and children it was very heart breaking for me to think I missed true love I wanted. My Princess Bride.

Like my life was not only my hell, but ours... and I suffered through hers as well.

And so I moved on what could I do, evolve?

And I started that journey and found I could believe in not a God out there, but a God in here, in myself. My own saviour.. myself.

I did speak to spirits and I did search and I found within me a Superpower I felt was my own being, and I proved it to myself.... getting well against all odds. Told I wouldn't recover and be on medications the rest of my life. But I thought "If I want to live forever.. do I want to be medicated and how would that be on the Earth resources being medicated forever!!" So I thought no.. I want to be my natural self, which is just a healthy man. And inside I have layers and layers.. and inside I believe I am a God and protecting that a Superman. The God is all my love for the world, and my Superman all my faith and power.

So you see, I wanted to help people after a while. How could I keep that all to myself? That would be selfish.. so my desire to help was out of unselfishness and not greed or corruption.. so I uncovered it in government and I'm sorry I couldn't just stay quiet.

Thanks to the likes of Mark Zuckerberg and others stuck their necks out to help others, so too did I feel I was. And of course in a corrupt society of need it hurts you.. or it does feel bad at times.. and you struggle and feel like the world is upon you and against you... but you are peacefully fighting intolerance and injustice and really ignorance. People think they've got it all sorted out. The world around us is decaying and dying and they think that's normal. They are conditioned to be lazy and negligent. Uneducated in the real importance of matters which affect our lives negatively.

Money we need it, but do we? You know it's a learning curve that will one day pass away. The need for distrust and control.

I can see a possible future that I envisage.. the oceans are full of ripe fruits that burst open and spray like wizz fizz sherbet for fish to eat... and we pick up the burst open fruits on the shoreline... to share the experience of dinner together with our "friends"... not our food.. our friends the aqua marine beings.

Out of that love and trust a new relationship is born and maybe even Aqua men and others..

The whole sea green with living plants and possibility. The ocean floor covered in not sand and rocks.. not arid.. but like carpet soft under foot and covered in mosses and grasses.

Sharks can wander off and just fold up their sore bare teeth back into their hearts all the anger... and be little marine dolphins and whales again...

I see the Earth alive with beauty and majesty, and sunlight mellow through the trees into clearings where men sleep of a day in gentle light.. dampened by the cool and the shade. The women sleep of a night separated not by space but by time.. time to themselves to be together. Of a day and do their thing.

Men can get out of a night and share stories together by the camp fire.. and mostly men and women just share time with their husbands and wives.

It could be a beautiful life.. no aggression all those things that cause it are not present anymore.

Peace and love and understanding of each others needs.

Thank you,

Your humble Superman and may we never forget the past.. for it reminds us what is important for our future.

Evan.

P.S. please don't feed your fish sugar.. it's not natural like fruits.