Fame or worship?

Some people are famous and people know about them and some are loved..

And then there are people worshipped and that feels lovely.

Me because I had a bad run through adult life, I felt worshipped by the world as a child and then adult life I realised no one really notices you.

But I still had a famous background of being worshipped and a celebrity at times..

But I just love the world and am rewarded with heaven. My love is a powerful force, but if you love me back it really is just warmth, passion, love and the bounty of nature.

I remember those ads for Bounty chocolate coconut bars, and the lady walking through the beach forest that's what I am like really.

I guess Barbie would need Nanna around, I think my Nanna now is Britney.. she desired to be a pop star and of course the way she was raised could never have had that opportunity, and to a child she was quite ugly faced, but later I realise she had a difficult upbringing.

Britney once said. I am beautiful after all aren't I? And I just thought later how much that was like Nanna, my Dad's mother.

She was born about the time Nanna died.

She looks so much like her, the wide broad eyes and nice smile. Nanna had a warm smile that was infectious even though she didn't do it around me that much when she did her face beamed.

I need Nanna Britney break the ice don't I? If it is true, Barbie would come then wouldn't she?

I can't do much without money to get around...

I see some of those women, Britney, Julia, Madonna and I am not attracted to them sexually that much, it's like they are lost family or something? I mean they are nice, like sometimes you do marry your estranged family only later to find out, they come back eventually after time away. maybe she just wants more time away.. I should have been famous and she never found out this way?? I wonder if she knows..