Hard being cooped up for a long time with no money...

Then you go shopping and surrounded by weird people one looked like a ninja and I was worried.. she moved like wind around me... it sends a shiver and I feel the retarded feelings arising from being clipped my penis and I say the weirdest things to unwind back to normal after being cooped up so long.

It's very stressful all the noise and being bothered online and then people stare at you and I thought he had my stolen bike was red and he was staring at me, so I make the bear call see if he's a friend but he doesn't look so not a friend, bad man.. might be my bike around the corner house near the new flats opposite. I say it just in case I really want my bike back so I can get fit. I can't run my feet all lacerated still from Katherine walk for a month in national park.

Got my shopping I wanted though withdrawing my savings and finally came into my account after a week.. and it was only $70 but then the top gun movie tom cruise mission impossible came out, I had very little left lucky I had $10 rewards and I overspent $20 into the red again till Friday more worries.

TV calms me down and movies...

Also I was really upset I couldn't find a car space near the house... and had to park up the street and then I had a bad tummy ache all the bad eating during my cooped up and the bike stolen I can't exercise was my go to for help losing weight when I had no money I can ride.. but now I can't.

And so I was busting for a shit too and I had Trigger too.. I made it just home and farted a big shit out and it went all over the place then I had to get trolley to get my shopping all the way back and then back again.. oh fuck I'm tired and bored too.

Don't tell me fucking Bear Grylls hanging around too asshole.. fuck off. I'm not famous fuck off leave me alone I don't know famous people. They got like heaps funding, I got nothing so it really worries me a lot famous people hanging around me, what the hell you want? I just lived my normal life, I'm not a celebrity I don't want to be one or associated. You can just worship me if you like, means love me.

Why don't Apple movies and PayPal come straight out not take weeks to process, because I thought going in to the shops I had $70, then I get there I got .. like $50?? What the heck can you buy with $50.??? Like I barely could afford a pizza delivery so I didn't get one cause I needed milk and things.

Oh fuck its Tuesday thought it was Thursday .. I got to wait all week here.. fucking eat crap.. then crap more.

Like reading poo isn't it? I should be making artworks..

Like I'm over the SiDAS group I got to do mainstream stuff.

I have my business ABN and my business name.. but I haven't sorted out any sort of equipment or proper idea for my media business.. computers really turn me off it. Everything they say is easier.. but no they make it like almost impossible to do anything?

My streaming site where I say all this instead of write it got stuffed up it wouldn't save the videos!! I would have gotten over this my now be making good new music! Like creativity isn't like what is in your head comes out.. sometimes it is with words but even then you have a paddock of choices to play with??

Like if I did music it might be about all this but not directly I might be writing about Trigger or Superman or like plants or nature or something else, like girls I like or something.. instead of direct slamming government.. it is better for me.!! Like Police or someone might like it, but I am not being paid here!!

So why prompt me for all this and I never signed up to anything!!??!

I want to be doing creative work or my business I had planned and the business guy I feel like he stole my idea he said he was a mentor bullshit!! Thief!! I can't work when someone has broken vow of privacy and all that. What's it called confidentiality. Even that Doctor I saw when I said I was doing like being a helpful friend for no pay to my people I meet who are disabled and I am not counselling them but just being a good friend.. I think he took that idea too the Doctor in the mall, and was like using it and I told him that in confidentiality.!!!

When do I get some payment or credit?!!

Why doesn't he come to me and say look what good work I have done thanks to you Evan.. no he runs away and takes credit for my good heart.

I feel someone else even got credit for my discovery about Tassie cats.. marsupial cats not calling them devils for the stigma causes nasal problems and cancerous growths.. that could have been a shining moment in history but no-one cares. Why does no one care about anything anymore?

I travelled all through Katherine park to study that. No one else would have found out.

I do all this good work and  no-one cares.. I feel like it's internet they cut me off fucking pricks.

I worry my sister has done the same I give her the best idea I have ever had about a new treatment system for mental health and I hear nothing about it!! She asked me to help her!! I want to see something happPPENNNN ahahahahghhh it's so tiring!!!!

These ideas don't work if they are stolen they are my own blood and heart and soul found them.